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FireFly
(@firefly)
Base Raider Survivor
Spoiler
seasons 2 to 4

24 25 years old
9th of September 1975
Unemployed. Burglar and thief

| Anxious | Unhinged | Paranoid | Loyal | Sympathy | Compassion |

 

Flynn lived a life full of regrets from start to finish. Wondering at every turn he took, every choice he made, "What the fuck am I doing."
He was born in a stable family- a single father and his younger sister. Food they had, money to afford the roof under their heads in KY Westpoint. But once his sister got gravely ill, it was the end for their little family. His father started working overtime and Flynn dropped education so he could work as a house sitter to earn money for medicine. It was not enough. It was never enough.
 
It started small. A few trinkets he took from the houses he was meant to watch over. But it slowly crawled up to bigger things. Jewelry. Little gems and such, until he decided to do this with every house he sat. Money he stole and moved on before anyone noticed.
 
They had a heated fallout, the family O'Neill, when the father realized what Flynn was doing. Stubborn as ever, the man took off for another client, sure that what he was doing was good. The client being states away but this would be worth it! The guy had a mansion, a big fancy place. Sure this would be Flynn's last big score to get the money he needs for his sister, right?
 
O, he was wrong. O very wrong. The owner knew what Flynn was up to from the start. One thing led to another and Flynn had a corpse on his hands. A worse timing Flynn could not have, as the lockdown started right there and then. Told to stay indoors as the law dealt with something Flynn was not capable of understanding. A few days went past of Flynn, stuck with his sins in that house, watching the news and watching as new monsters came to roam KY. "What is my sister up to? Or my father? Would they want to see me back? Are they okay?" Questions did not stop. And once the news stations fell to silence, Flynn took off- gearing up, and traveling back to Westpoint.
 
But once he came back, he encountered two crosses in front of the porch of his house. One big, one little. Flynn took his sisters' favorite scarf and settled down at her favorite fishing dock. Still with the same question and motive stuck forever in his head: "They need to be alive. I'm sure she's alive. I can't give up and die now, she needs me. Waiting for me. Somewhere." Flynn never accepted. Never moved on. Maybe that's for the best, as he does not have anything else to live for.
 
- The greatest lie of his life is his greatest motivation to survive. -
 
 
"There is this.. an eye for an eye quote. Not too sure how it goes- sure it applies to our world, right now. We are no better than these zeds roaming the streets. Hurt someone and you'll get hurt in return. Kill someone- and your loved ones will get killed. I made this mistake before the end of the world. And here I am. The selfish prick that I am. I am not worth it. I never was. But God I tried, that I did."

 

A few of his iconic belongings are found in between his possessions...

 

Cowboy hat – Flynn always had a strange interest in them since he was young. It still shows, even as an adult.

Scarf – When searching his house to find his sister, Emma, he found her favorite scarf instead. It’s his, now.

Crowbar – Unfortunately, he knew how to use those. Mainly to open doors, cars, vaults, or crack open zed skulls with.

 

 

The first page of his journal, written on the day of the end.

I don't remember what happened. I woke up in that house.. and that corpse. Dead eyes watching me. I did this. While the world outside was falling apart, the first person to die at the start of it all was an innocent man. He had a wife. A family. What have I done? I guess it does not matter anymore. Nobody will know. Lockdown happened and I couldn't leave no more. Stuck with my sins for a week and then the law disappeared. Washed the blood off my hands but I can still see it. I can see HIM. Some crazy people running around outside now... attacking us. Creatures they are. But more than me they can't be, no. Fuck this world. Fuck my life. I've become a monster before they appeared. And nobody will know... no they won't. A secret between me and the zeds to keep until death does us apart. I'm writing this to remember what kind of man I man. And for anyone else who reads this by picking it off my corpse or otherwise: I am not worth it. I never was. But God I tried, that I did.

There are faintly scribbled notes behind the page...

They're gone. She's gone. Here they're lying. No. Are they? They can't. What the fuck have I done?! No. She's not gone. She can't be. Right? No. I gotta find her. She is not gone. She can't be. I gotta find her. She's not dead... she's. *Here*. Right here. I gotta find her.. I.. gotta.

 

 

22 years old
9th of September 1977
Unemployed. Orphan. Burglar and thief

| Anxious | Unhinged | Paranoid | Loyal | Sympathy | Compassion |

 

“It’s the way it is”

 

Flynn lived a life full of regrets, from start to finish.

He did not have much of a family- at least, none he can remember quite well. Vague memories of his mother he has- until these suddenly stopped, replaced by memories of his dad. At the age of 6, Flynn's mom died. Not knowing what is happening, why- or where his mom went to, Flynn's dad gave the child up to be sent off to the orphanage. Not being able to handle the child, turning abusive. He thought this would be better for Flynn.

O he was very wrong...

First few days he'd cluelessly ask for his ma and pa. He'd not leave the bed he got assigned to no matter what- the poor boy chained himself to it day in and day out. Cause he wanted his ma and pa. Where were ma and pa? Kids would quickly pick up on this... showing their sympathy at first, but quickly changing it all into a game of: "Who can get Flynn off the bed first?"

Growing up, he got bullied. Pushed and thrown around for being the quiet child. For being the kid who was too scared to leave his bed. For not being able to articulate himself- stuttering. For the type of people he'd be eying when older. For being Flynn.

It pushed the child down, and comfort he needed.. yet he never got this. Never saw the orphanage as a home, and never a foster parent dared to lay their eyes upon the child due to his shyness and anxious behaviour.

He pushed himself to escape at the age of seventeen. Hoping to find his dad back. Hoping to find something better. Comfort. A new family. One who did not push Flynn down. A worse mistake the teen couldn't have made, as this led to a life living on the streets instead. Being looked down upon even more, perhaps he even started meddling with the wrong kind of people for sake of getting by...

Mistakes upon mistakes were made as the young man got dragged along with these people. Getting forced to do things he did not feel comfortable with. Might it be robbing people, scamming them, or even hurting some. Many times Flynn tried to escape- but sadly, this was not the orphanage. These people were ruthless. Willing to hurt Flynn if he did not help. "Until you repay us for all the times we've helped you out," they'd say.

Flynn was stuck. That is, up until the apocalypse started. From tension to lock down to the first zeds to appear- the gang turned against each other as Flynn slipped away at the moment of chaos.. leaving everyone behind to get slaughtered by a horde. Flynn did not turn around to glance back at the people who saved his life, and destroyed it after. Listening to the screams of terror and pain as the young man slipped away in tears.

Never in his life before he wanted to return to the orphanage this bad. Back to being the scared kid, bullied and pushed around.

Somehow, the young man found comfort in the thoughts of the orphanage when surrounded by zeds. Somehow, Flynn regretted everything.

A few of his iconic belongings are found in between his possessions...

 

Cowboy western comics were young Flynns’ only comfort back at the orphanage. Sure, he’d get bullied over it- but there is no way in Hell he’d put his comically big   cowboy hat away- the one his little eight-year-old head would disappear under. He still wears the same cowboy hat, even as an adult.

 

It’s an understatement to say that Flynn only got bullied, back at the orphanage. Let us not forget about that incident when older kids kept 12 year old Flynn pinned against the kitchens’ oven, pushing his hands onto it- cause Flynn had talked back when a bully made fun of his journals. He’s been wearing gloves to hide the burns.

 

Might it be when he is trying to escape the orphanage, or when he got forced to open up a few safes by the gang he accidentally fell in with- or to open zed skulls with. His crowbar has been his best friend for a while, now.

 

 

/The first pages of his journal, written on the day of the end.

"25/04/19

I did the right thing. No I did not. Did I? They saved me. I repay them with this? Leaving them behind. The screams. God- the fucking screams. All the... things. Zeds- dead people they're.. they were everywhere? Did anyone survive from back there? Fuck... they are going to kill me if they knew how I left them behind. It'll be well fucking deserves as well. Fuck.. what the fuck do I need to do? What can I do? I left them like how I left the orphanage- are they still okay? I shouldn't have left the orphanage... I shouldn't have left the gang... I shouldn't have fucking... survived this day?!"

"28/04.19

I made it out of LouisVille.. I just want to get away from that place as far as possible. I tried. I genuinely tried to go back to the orphanage- but the people. The hordes? There were too many. It pushed me further down, south.. ended up in Muldraugh. But fuck- every time I close my eyes to try and sleep, I see them. Fucking them. Screaming after me as I slip away in between the zeds. For help? To make me obey them? I should've helped. But I did not. The fucking coward I am. I wish I could've gone back to the orphanage- make sure they were all alright... no matter my past with that place. Fucking hell this mess.. I don't know what to do? I just need to... escape as far as I possibly can."

 

/There are faintly scribbled notes behind the page...

"They all died because of me. They all did. And if not, I'll be a dead man soon. I am not worth it. I never was. But God I tried, that I did."

 

 

The laundry lady at the orphanage would pick up on Flynns quiet, shy personality. To get away from the bullying, she’d often take Flynn away- sneaking him into a quiet room where no other kids were at. She was the one who gave Flynn his first journal to capture his thoughts, and noticed how this immediately calmed Flynns’ anxieties down. Not a lot, but it was something.

She’d always try and motivate Flynn to explore a bit more. Find out what he likes to do- play around, discover his hobbies. But never Flynn had the chance to do so due to the daily amount of bullying and harassment. The laundry lady would try to take a walk in the forest with Flynn, picking berries… or sit down to draw- or go into the kitchen to bake cookies with him, but Flynn always just blankly stared down- not showing any kind of excitement.

That is, until the lady caught Flynn playing around with his little crafts. A small wooden horse he had whittled on his own at the age of 9. The nurse took him out that day.. and started building little birdhouses around the orphanage with little Flynn. Flynn, for the first time since he arrived, had fun. Unfortunately, the laundry lady passed away just a few days after Flynns' 10th birthday.

 

 

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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Topic starter Posted : 06/02/2022 4:09 pm
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JOURNAL ENTRY 1

4/16, West Point Streets

Loot house. scavenge food. Move on. Kill Zed. Scavenge house. Drink some soda. Move on. Kill Zed. Oh, a car! Battery is missing. Move on. Day in and day out. scavenge. eat. survive. I cannot live like this. There is no purpose to it. Why am I still moving? Her. Yes. I need to find her. I won't pull the trigger now. I can't. Not while she is waiting.. for me.

 

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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Topic starter Posted : 06/02/2022 4:21 pm
FireFly
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JOURNAL ENTRY 2

4/18, West Point Docks

I found a... decent.. car. Well, not too decent. Breaking down as we speak but it does the job. No clue how to repair this thing. Got back to the fishing docks in west point my sister used to love so much. Maybe I can renovate this place... have somewhere to call home. Until she returns back- until I find her again. She'll be all over this place..

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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FireFly
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JOURNAL ENTRY 3

4/19, West Point Docks

went out scavenging today. On foot- just down the neighborhood.. for any food. resources to fortify this tiny place with. Maybe a generator if I'm lucky, so I won't have to read my books in the dark. And JUST down the road... a heavily fortified place. All fenced up, and men armed to the teeth. I'm not sure if they saw me. But I saw them. And I am not planning on talking anytime soon. I am not leaving the docks no matter. I hope they aren't hostile.

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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Topic starter Posted : 06/02/2022 4:24 pm
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JOURNAL ENTRY 4 

The papers are wet and slightly crumbled, splatters of blood drying at the edges of the page.

4/30, Between West Point and Muldraugh

west point is barren... I needed to get out. Find a radio maybe. A way to communicate. I need it if I ever want to get out more. Let my voice be heard- maybe she'll hear mine. I couldn't take the vehicle I have now.. its breaking down as we speak. So I went back to that.. neighbors of mine. And what do you know.. their corpses are there. I don't know what happened. When it happened. But it didn't matter. Guess they wouldn't mind me taking their vehicle now. Hotwired it like the curse I man. Worst mistake I've made... Do you even know how to fucking properly drive, you pathetic IDIOT?! I crashed.. in the middle of the highway. Zeds... fucking everywhere. How the fuck did I even survive? No matter. Storm started. I'm stranded. What am I even doing, anymore?

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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Topic starter Posted : 06/02/2022 4:26 pm
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JOURNAL ENTRY 5

4/19, Muldraugh streets

Spend the last few days on the road. Trying to reach godforsaken Muldraugh. Killing zeds all over. There was no turning back and without a vehicle, I didn't have any choice other than to walk on. I nearly died... multiple times. Got scratched and torn all over- I guess it was time to freshen up my memories on first aid stuff.. unfortunately.

But I'm here. And god, have I missed sleeping on a bed. Now that I'm here, my first priority is.. find a two-way radio. walkie talky or ham radio- just. Anything. Be able to find my sister through this.

Second: A car. I am NOT going to walk all the way back. I pushed my luck once- no way I'll be this lucky to be alive again.

and third: If I am lucky to find a generator, drag it along with me. I need some power back at the docks If I want to stay alive. No more luck. Not for this unworthy son of a bitch that I am. I'm ready to play your game, mother nature.

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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FireFly
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JOURNAL ENTRY 6

5/9, Muldraugh, Motel Mul

And as I was at my lowest, I got pulled back up. Why is this even happening to me? Do I really deserve this kind of luck? I don't have any skills or reason to be spared and a guy I encountered. Armed, named Charlie I believe. Stumbled upon him as I went to search for the radio, and he showed me his base.

I don't know why. He went and prepared a room for me. I don't have a fucking clue why. He gave me food, shelter, resources- a fucking gun... let me watch TV (they've got a tv) and I don't know why. Do I deserve this type of kindness? He offered me to stay- help around with their little thriving base. Do I want to stay? A glorious, thriving base over the 1 x 1 fishing docks I've got back home? Do I really want to be selfish and abandon my sister, stop building her little dream house, search for her, and instead, be selfish and give myself the kindness I don't deserve?

I don't know. I do think slumping through the roads and managing to get off the highway more dead than alive gave me severe existential dread and I need to take a nap asap.

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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FireFly
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JOURNAL ENTRY 7

5/10, Muldraugh Motel Mul

Charlie took me out for some loot runs. They needed leather. And he asked me to be his buddy and watch his back. Now. I don't know anything about teamwork. Co operation- whatever the stuff is. I've been a hermit. Always on my own. So as per usual (and expected), he got bit. After watching three different people getting eaten.. and he got bit. Somehow he survived. (Good job, Flynn. You're such a team player.)

Their doc, Sera I think, managed to create a cure that defeated the infection. I might want to stick around with them a small bit more... at least... to guarantee some kind of protection.

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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Topic starter Posted : 06/02/2022 4:33 pm
FireFly
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JOURNAL ENTRY 8

5/22, Muldraugh Motel Mul

I've been hanging around with these people for quite a while now. They seem nice. The library they've got.. it taught me a lot of stuff so far. And the loot runs especially. I've become quicker. More alert. Thanks to Charlie and this bunch. I got my own room with a tv- I still can't believe it. (Obviously, I'm only staying for this sweet tv. Gotta catch up on my tv shows.)

But last morning, something happened. A kid, apparently hiding from us for 4 days within our walls. He appeared. Named.. Kurt. Only 16. Unaware of the "old world." I feel like I'm losing my mind. He talks about killing zombies like I used to talk about playing video games after school. It's making me sick.

He reminds me of her. And it hurts. Em, the way he talks is just like her. Unaware of the angry world out there. I feel like I'm going insane. I don't know why it hurts. it shouldn't hurt. Looking at this kid hurts. Ems' out there, right? Sure she is.. just like Kurt. She's also wandering and talking about playing with zeds... Just like him. Alive.

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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Topic starter Posted : 06/02/2022 4:35 pm
FireFly
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JOURNAL ENTRY 9

5/24, Muldraugh Motel Mul

/\-/\

|o_o|

------ Thats a cat face.

6                    0                                     (8)

\|/                 \c/  Limping Robby?      \|/

/\ me             /|                                      /\ charlie with gas mask.

I don't know. Saw Kurt drawing. Talented kid. Maybe I should try my hand at it as well... hm... maybe not, actually.

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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Topic starter Posted : 06/02/2022 4:37 pm
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JOURNAL ENTRY 10

5/30, Muldraugh Motel Mul

Guess what? I'm a farm-boy now. Heh. I'm either going to bring this place up into flames or they are going to die like the houseplants I used to keep. I guess its not too late to learn new stuff in the apocalypse.

Kurt is Keith. Apparently he got up and talked to some of his buddies on the radio. I don't know what about, but Robby heard him. Not-kurt is asleep now. What are we gonna do with this lying kid..?

 

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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Topic starter Posted : 06/02/2022 4:38 pm
FireFly
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JOURNAL ENTRY 1

10/17, West Point streets

Its crazy out there. People running left and right to stock up on recourses. No police, no doctors- no one out there to help us as some of the people are getting caught by these... monsters out there.

Im in Westpoint. I need to look around, for my sis. Maybe shes with a group or whatever- somewhere. But I need to stock up as well if I want to avoid these things out there, I dont have anything left no more from my prior trip over here..

Got scratched up heavily as I tried to escape these things. Thought I was done for- when I stumbled into this daycare... and what do you know? Two doctors piling up resources and barricading the place. One named Connor, and the other... eh... something.

They helped me with my wounds. I got lucky..I guess. With them not being hostile. With them being doctors. And with them having bandages to stich me up with. What did I do to deserve this luck..?

Good to know people managed to find some safety still.. maybe my sister also did?

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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Topic starter Posted : 08/02/2022 4:13 pm
FireFly
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JOURNAL ENTRY 2

10/19, West Point streets

Connor is leaving. As WP is becoming more and more barren and more dangerous. Im staying though. For Em. because shes going to come back. I know she will.

Told me to contact him on channel 40 if I find a radio and need help.

Good people are still around...

40 - Docter Connor (incase I need a ride)

Ok, now where to find a radio..

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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Topic starter Posted : 09/02/2022 2:22 am
FireFly
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JOURNAL ENTRY 3

10/20, West Point Petrol Station

  • Drew the mechanic: west of WP town by the river and a small lake. Incase I've got car issues.
  • Connor the doc, radio channel 40: here if I need a ride or aything health related.

God, I didnt have this many contacts BEFORE the end of the world.

Anyway, I started renovating the little petrol station at west point. Might wait my time out there until.. my sister returns.

- Forever crying over season 4 -
season 2: Flynn Oneill | Motel Mul
season 3: Flynn Oneill | Sanctuary
season 4: Flynn / Emma Oneill | Goodall and Co
season 5: Flynn Oneill | Hermits at Pitstop Compound
season 6:
Rory Mackay | New Denver Hoa

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